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A Little Bit Closer Now...

There are moments within the process of building a house that leave me excited, terrified and spinning all at once.

I bounce back and forth several times every day about whether or not we are doing the right thing.

There are so many unknowns with going forth in the building process, and at times I find myself wanting to stay and hide in the familiar.

Sometimes I panic that I will choose the wrong thing for our family and what if I stretch us too thin?

Then, ten minutes later I am yelling at the girls to stay away from the road as trucks rumble by ten feet away from our current house, and I feel like we can't get out of here soon enough.

It's a constant internal battle and it is all bubbling up as I sit here tonight soaking in all that the contractor had to say today.

We have decided to continue forward in finalizing plans for the new house. The rough estimate is still nearly $30,000 over our budget but by tightening our needs over our wants, the Hubs, the contractor and I feel like we can get much closer to our budget.

Up next we are focusing on locking down a plan that has every single penny down to the last nail budgeted in. At that point we will make the decision whether we will to go for it or walk away.

It's an odd feeling being so happy and so terrified all at once.

I need to start making those small decisions that are all part of a giant decision; white trim or wood trim, hard wood floors or laminate, interior door style, light fixtures, wood or gas fireplace...

Ok. Enough. I am spinning again.

Any tips to help me take this one step at a time? I love hearing from you!

Have a lovely day!

P.S. When I'm sitting on a screened in porch like this, sipping wine and eating cheese and crackers this will all be worth it... right?

 

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  1. How exciting! I'm sure you will make all the right decisions. My parents have been building their own house for the past year... I know it can be a little overwhelming. :-)

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    1. Your Mom has a blog doesn't she? I need to check that out and see how their house is coming along! Thanks!

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